doctorine? theology? ok?

{knowledge.puffs.up.but.love.builds.up. 1 corinthians 8.1}

i went {into} yesterday's night and had some sort of preconceived {idea/doctrine/theology} on actual doctrine compiled with a disorganized tainted view formed by a legalistic church that shunned me out of pure rumor. {not that i blame.} just learned more of a relationship with God rather than focusing my every part of faith on the shalls and shall nots. possibly the grace-filled God teaching me BIG lessons  so prior to 12hours ago i was on the opposite side of this {human-made} spectrum possibly and just as far from ideas of grace.love.hope as i was before. thinking that doctrine was {man.made&not Jesus.}? absolutely. now?doctrine and theology ok? yes. BUT only if it is in {one accord} with the teachings of Jesus {word for word} and is love. yes still grasping onto my latest perspective onto the relationship rather than religion BUT also holding accountability for my faith and actually know WHY i believe in the salvation Jesus brings through grace. {knowledge.puffs.up.but.love.builds.up.} i want my worldview to be inspired.created fully with the {knowledgeANDlove} of Jesus. {working on now and far from finished.} BUT i am seeking answers and asking questions. {interesting:i would have considered someone like me far from God and lacking religion a year ago. judgmental?: absolutely.}